No one can fail who seeks to reach the truth
I staggered into his office and plunked down across from his desk, hanging my sorry, little head. For a variety of external reasons that still seemed … [Read More...]
I want to hold your hand, but …
“Our Love awaits us as we go to Him, and walks beside us showing us the way. He fails in nothing. He the End we seek, and he the Means by which we … [Read More...]
Hunger games
Another Monday and another snowstorm predicted to hover over Denver, dispensing its unseasonably frigid gloom through Wednesday. Icing rush-hour … [Read More...]
Gloria Wapnick: an inspiration and guiding light
Husband and fellow Co-founder of the Foundation for A Course in Miracles in Temecula, California, Kenneth Wapnick, PhD, calls her the foundation’s … [Read More...]
A happy outcome to all things is sure
“I must realize that (when projecting) I am throwing Jesus under the bus and running over him again and again and again and it’s not helping … [Read More...]
Devotional pose
I rapped softly on the mottled glass of the ajar door to my imaginary professor’s office, a courtesy; really, since I could tell he was not inside. … [Read More...]
The fear of redemption
I’d awakened again, a tangled, sweaty mess, the air conditioning unit in my hotel room once more inexplicably malfunctioning, unsuccessfully trying … [Read More...]
A Conversation with Ken Wapnick: making it the most important thing!
I recently sat down again to interview Ken Wapnick while attending a weeklong Academy class at the Foundation for a Course in Miracles (FACIM) in … [Read More...]
Let us not fight our function
I sat across from his desk, waiting a long while in the semi-darkness of a stormy, late winter morning, staring at the tiny torpedoes of wet snow … [Read More...]
Choose once again redux
I sat at my desk on another Monday morning, staring at the computer screen in front of me, the proverbial blank page I still sometimes see in my … [Read More...]
The appointed friend
“Anything in this world you believe is good and valuable and worth striving for can hurt you, and will do so. Not because it has the power to hurt, … [Read More...]
The choice for completion
“In looking at the special relationship, it is necessary first to realize that it involves a great amount of pain. Anxiety, despair, guilt, and … [Read More...]
Sickness is a defense against the truth
I was just so frustrated again. Still nauseated, in fact, by the seeming stupendous insensitivity of a costar in the movie of my so-called life, a … [Read More...]
Dreaming dreamy dreams
In my sleeping dream (within the seemingly awake dream we call life) I had apparently won a trip to a tropical island that included lodging at a bed … [Read More...]
The need of every heart
Last week I once more found myself in that rawest of places, judging several imaginary “some ones” and “some things” harshly, holding them … [Read More...]
I do not know the way to you
My little dog Kayleigh had been up six times during the night, apparently again suffering from the mysterious intestinal distress that had plagued her … [Read More...]
What is sin?
I lifted my head from the cradle of my folded arms resting on his desk, flexed my fingers stinging with pins and needles from the weight of it. Hard … [Read More...]
Listen
As a college student one summer, for reasons I still can’t quite fathom given my colossal lack of experience, I somehow landed a job working as a … [Read More...]
Holy, wholly, moly
I stood at his open door, about to knock, but he wasn’t inside. Strange, I’d called ahead, made an appointment even. He had never been late before … [Read More...]
Healing my mind about the dream
“The body is the central figure in the dreaming of the world. There is no dream without it, nor does it exist without the dream in which it acts as … [Read More...]
In search of true innocence
" 'My sinlessness is guaranteed by God,' " I read. I sat at my desk the Monday morning after the long Thanksgiving weekend pondering this recurring … [Read More...]
Entertaining absolution
I stood at the open door to his office and knocked softly. He glanced up from the papers he was grading. “Hey,” he said. “Long time no … [Read More...]
My salvation comes from me
I crouched on the floor near the side door to our home trying to convince my tiny distressed maltipoo that her salvation did not rest on the alpha … [Read More...]
Seeing purple
“You do not offer God your gratitude because your bother is more slave than you, nor could you sanely be enraged if he seems freer. Love makes no … [Read More...]
A forgiveness prayer
The day began with news that the super storm creeping toward the East Coast dubbed Frankenstorm by the media due to its proximity to Halloween and … [Read More...]
Forgiveness is the key to happiness
My weekend had been humming along rather nicely here in dreamland if I do say so myself. I had finally gotten moving on a writing project I’d been … [Read More...]
It is impossible to see two worlds
The day began to the grating tune of NPR reporting yet another round of polls indicating a shocking drop in support for Barack Obama in the upcoming … [Read More...]
Diamonds and rust
Last weekend I taught an A Course in Miracles forgiveness workshop in which I shared my ever-strengthening conviction that learning to follow the … [Read More...]
Identify with what will make you truly safe
I sat at my desk last Monday morning once more reflecting on the sense of paralysis I’d been feeling around my awareness that I always had a choice … [Read More...]
Hell no, I won’t go!
As I caught myself once more attempting to shout down the ego last week, I experienced a shift in perspective that helped me compassionately witness … [Read More...]
I will step back and let Him lead the way
I don’t often hear voices—well, I mean, except for the imaginary cast of characters with whom I appear to interact on a daily basis here on … [Read More...]
I am entitled to miracles
Suffice it to say the day had not gotten off to an auspicious start. I’d arisen consumed with repetitive judgments of imaginary external events no … [Read More...]
I want to hold your hand
"… Whenever fear intrudes anywhere along the road to peace, it is because the ego has attempted to join the journey with us and cannot do so. … [Read More...]
A Conversation with Ken Wapnick: Just don’t justify it!
I recently sat down again to interview Ken Wapnick while attending a weeklong Academy class at the Foundation for a Course in Miracles in Temecula, … [Read More...]
Without forgiveness I will still be blind
I lay awake in the middle of the night as I sometimes do, adrift in that yawning chasm of lonesome silence in which my ego thoughts spring to life … [Read More...]
What is a miracle?
I sat at my desk in pain, writing a post about the true meaning of healing. Trying as always to connect with my right mind, thereby allowing all I … [Read More...]
What does it mean to heal?
I sat in my desk chair in lotus position on a Monday morning, eyes shut, unsuccessfully attempting to connect with my seemingly AWOL right … [Read More...]
I am not a body. I am free. Seriously?
I sat squirming at my desk, unable to find a position that didn’t aggravate the persistent pain on the right side of my lower back, scratching a … [Read More...]
Political purpose
Twice last week while engrossed in friendly, casual conversations with two different acquaintances I found myself unexpectedly catapulted into … [Read More...]
Cloudy with a chance of projection
“… Think of your mind as a vast circle, surrounded by a layer of heavy, dark clouds. You can see only the clouds because you seem to be standing … [Read More...]
Unwelcome guest
I had been up several times during the night frantically trying to locate the perpetrator responsible for a large patch of inflamed, itchy bites on my … [Read More...]
Seeking a friend for the end of the world
NOTE: This post was written a week ago; when the Flagstaff fire in Boulder and the Waldo Canyon fire that has devastated parts of Colorado Springs had … [Read More...]
On true compassion and worldly happiness
Last week a student who is fairly new to A Course in Miracles and was reading my book, Extraordinary Ordinary Forgiveness, contacted me with a series … [Read More...]
True empathy
I sat cross-legged in my desk chair early one morning on the cusp of the summer solstice trying to absorb the meaning of real compassion, … [Read More...]
Can you spell that for me?
I stood at the white board in front of my classroom, Sharpie in hand, finally assuming the teaching role to which I was rightfully born. Jesus had … [Read More...]
An American in Paris
Standing in line with my family outside the Musee d’Orsay restaurant waiting to be seated for lunch during our recent vacation in Paris, I found … [Read More...]
C’est la guerre
“Long time no see with,” Jesus said, leaning back in his office chair, sandaled feet propped up on his desk. Have I mentioned he really is a lot … [Read More...]
Have a little faith in me
“Don’t make me go back out there again,” I said, resurrecting my “tiny voice.” The one I used to use as a kid in the confessional, reciting … [Read More...]
What do you ask for in your heart?
I had just come through a welcome shift in my perception of a special relationship I had held responsible for the conflict and drama (A Course in … [Read More...]
It is done
I sat at my desk, cross-legged in my chair; eyes squeezed shut, silently repeating the word “one” in response to a tsunami of other words and … [Read More...]
Forgiveness slide show
I sat at my desk, cross-legged in my chair, eyes closed; calling to mind the face of someone I’ve been struggling to forgive for a long time. … [Read More...]
Seek you no further
All week long I’d been robotically watching the same old series of internal films starring yours truly, pausing to reflect on moments of glory … [Read More...]
The quiet answer
“Let me get this straight,” I said, as my inner imaginary Jesus and I rode up the chairlift at Loveland Ski Area together last weekend. “You … [Read More...]
Bridge over troubled water
Shhhh … Lean in a little closer. I have a confession to make. I killed a spider the other day in cold blood. I spotted it immediately on entering my … [Read More...]
Let me want to want the problem solved
I sighed another of the sighs for which I was justly famous; a gold-medal-caliber sigh, were sighing ever to gain its rightful status as a … [Read More...]
Hakuna matata
“Hakuna, matata; Hakuna, matata!” I woke the Monday after the change to daylight savings time to find the ego surreally cavorting around my … [Read More...]
The cost of living
“THE ONLY THING WORTH DYING FOR IS LIVING,” read the marquee outside a nearby church. My foot popped off the accelerator and moved toward the … [Read More...]
The Rock of Salvation
I had just posted my most recent interview with Ken Wapnick and sat in my office on a Monday morning reviewing the copious notes I’d taken during … [Read More...]
A Conversation with Ken Wapnick: be gentle with yourself
I was fortunate enough to sit down again recently with Ken Wapnick while attending a workshop at the Foundation for A Course in Miracles (FACIM) in … [Read More...]
Queen for a Day
In second grade I developed a nasty, prolonged case of mono that hung on for most of a year and boomeranged back in the next, forcing me to stay home … [Read More...]
Seek not outside yourself
I sat cross-legged on the floor in front of my imaginary TV screen, rummaging in an imaginary drawer filled with imaginary DVDs of my many seeming … [Read More...]
Another endearing conversation with the ego
I stared at the computer screen, begging for clarity about how to respond to another seemingly confounding email. I’d been struggling to follow the … [Read More...]
My home awaits me; I will hasten there
“Close your eyes, and breathe deeply,” I said. “As you inhale, focus on all that stress and worry you’ve been dragging around. As you exhale, … [Read More...]
Your task is not to seek for love
In the dream I am on foot, adrift in a sprawling, unfamiliar city. Winding up and down twisted streets slick with rain, crossing highway overpasses, … [Read More...]
I am the peace of God! (Who knew?)
I had fallen asleep the night before uttering the same prayer, the title of A Course in Miracles workbook lesson 185—I want the peace of God—I’d … [Read More...]
The Only Real Relationship and a magic cookie recipe
I was back in that rawest of places in a special relationship; believing in the dream again, berating myself for lack of palpable improvement in form; … [Read More...]
Kindness Created Me Kind: oh; never mind!
I appeared to be battling another particularly nasty bout of what I’ve come to think of as A Course in Miracles-resistance flu, a malaise that … [Read More...]
Making it about them
For weeks I’d been listening to a brilliant CD set of Ken Wapnick’s entitled Cast No One Out, in which he recommends we “make it about them” … [Read More...]
The Descendants Strikes at the Severed Heart of Our Special Relationships
On the Monday before Thanksgiving I awoke to experience a kind of short fuse in my decision-making mind, my connection with the right-mindedness that … [Read More...]
Confessions of a Gentleness Wannabe
Although I’d fallen asleep the night before praying for help in finding my AWOL inner Teacher of kindness, I awoke painfully aware I’d been … [Read More...]
I Want It, I Want It, I Want It, No, Wait; What Is It Again?
I’d been working with making inner peace my goal from moment to moment in what Course Scholar and amazing Teacher Ken Wapnick refers to as the … [Read More...]
What Do You Ask for in Your Heart?
“I’m not talking about this now,” I said, barricading myself in the fox hole of my office against incoming verbal shrapnel like any … [Read More...]
Bad Baby
Zombie: “… animated corpses … often figuratively applied to describe a person bereft of consciousness and self-awareness, yet ambulant and able … [Read More...]
Forgiveness ACIM-Style: No Big Deal!
I was fortunate enough to sit down recently to interview Ken Wapnick again while attending a workshop at the Foundation for a Course in Miracles … [Read More...]
Chutes and Ladders
I sat in the plane beside my daughter on our way back from attending a memorial service for my mother-in-law in Maryland. I was just finishing up … [Read More...]
Truth or Cake?
I have stored in my bodily memory an image from early childhood of a perfect autumn day. Maple leaves still wanton on their branches and blushing in … [Read More...]
What have you saved to settle by yourself?
I sat at my computer anxiously awaiting my appearance as a guest speaker at ACIM Gather; an online radio broadcast service for A Course in Miracles … [Read More...]
Boot Camp? Not …
A couple of weeks ago in the regular A Course in Miracles Thursday night class I teach our conversation wandered into that ever seductive quagmire of … [Read More...]
You Gotta Wear Shades
“I would just--for once in my life--like to have a little direct experience of God, is that too much to ask? A little preview of our Father’s … [Read More...]
What Is Forgiveness?
“An unforgiving thought does many things. In frantic action it pursues its goal, twisting and overturning what it sees as interfering with its … [Read More...]
Should Healing Be Repeated?
I had just discovered my little dog’s “accident” on the upstairs carpet and knelt on the floor with the stain remover and a damp cloth rubbing … [Read More...]
Talking with Gary Renard
In The Disappearance of the Universe, bestselling author Gary Renard chronicles his extraordinary conversations with Arten and Pursah, two “ascended … [Read More...]
Shark Week
“You always. You never. Why can’t you just? Do you realize you?” I stood in my kitchen, futilely swatting at fruit flies with a pot holder, … [Read More...]
Lean on me
Lean on me, when you're not strong And I'll be your friend I'll help you carry on For it won't be long 'Til I'm gonna need Somebody to lean … [Read More...]
Be you in charge
I sat at my desk reviewing the latest tips for stage fright I had downloaded off the internet. “Visualize a past success,” I read. What were … [Read More...]
Declaration of dependence
My husband and daughter had taken off for the mountains to attend the annual celebration of the final day of the last Colorado ski resort (Arapahoe … [Read More...]
Forget this book: well; maybe tomorrow
As I sat at my desk carefully cutting out strips of duct tape to suture the ragged spine of my A Course in Miracles book the other morning I became … [Read More...]
Objects in mirror are closer than they appear
A couple years ago I had an epiphany of sorts while contemplating the recurring, ever-strengthening urge to begin formally teaching A Course in … [Read More...]
Let all things be exactly as they are
How I longed to breathe a complete sigh of relief as we touched down on the runway in Puerto Vallarta. But I knew the trouble I had expelling all air … [Read More...]
Choose again
Just back from Mexico and posting this essay written two weeks ago. While in Puerto Vallarta I was able to let a little more specialness wash away. … [Read More...]
Just a little willingness
Through the mottled glass of the window on the office door I could see Jesus bent over his desk, grading papers, no doubt. You’d think he would keep … [Read More...]
I need do nothing
It was that kind of day in the dream. I awoke to NPR interviewing a few believers in the rapture (apparently scheduled to arrive May 21, 2011) … [Read More...]
The egg that cracked
When my daughter was in kindergarten she won an award in our school district’s “Young Authors” competition for a picture book she wrote and … [Read More...]
Wilted lilies, growing up too soon, and a recipe for forgiveness
It all started benignly enough the Thursday night before Easter with a lovely discussion and meditation in my weekly A Course in Miracles class. We … [Read More...]
Forgiveness: No previous experience required (or desired)
I had been mentally complaining to Jesus (that symbol of the one awakened mind we share) about a number of brewing situations in my seemingly … [Read More...]
I Gotta Be Me! (Well, maybe not…)
I Gotta Be Me -Sammy Davis, Jr. Whether I'm right or whether I'm wrong Whether I find a place in this world or never belong I gotta be me, … [Read More...]
A conversation with Ken Wapnick: Did I mention you’re too serious?
Renowned Psychologist, Teacher, and Author Kenneth Wapnick, PhD, has been studying, teaching, and writing about A Course in Miracles since 1973, and … [Read More...]
A Conversation with Ken Wapnick: The Course really works, if you work at it and :)
NOTE: Clinical Psychologist, Teacher and Author Kenneth Wapnick, PhD, has been studying A Course in Miracles since 1973, and worked closely with … [Read More...]
The Quiet Center: An interview with Ken Wapnick
During a recent visit to The Foundation for A Course in Miracles (FACIM) in Temecula, California to attend a workshop with friend and fellow Course … [Read More...]
Ken Wapnick: Don’t Play In the Sandbox
Growing up in Brooklyn, NY, and turned off by organized religion and the messages of his family's Jewish faith, Ken Wapnick nonetheless suspected … [Read More...]
